i`m a princess. but i wanna be a queen. so i`m a queen.

+ WOOT +

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 00:38:40 GMT

Kay so my weekend was pretty fun.

Friday Joe got back from footballcamp and we were supposed to go on a double date with Derek and Katie, but! Derek said he was going over to Liz's house to swim and he invited Joe and I to go so we did that. lmfaoo..it was great. We played chicken and in one round, I was on Joe's shoulders and I was going against Katie and like, she accidentally grabbed my top and I like, screamed and went backwards and when I came up she was holding my top in her hands..lmfaoo. And like, everyone saw me and I was like, "OH SHIT" haha..but Derek was like, "LET'S GO SKINNY DIPPING!"

So Liz, Jordan, Ashley, Joe [Ashley's Joe], my Joe, Derek, Katie, Cammi, and I all went skinny dipping. ahaha it was so funny. Cammi was like, "I feel free without my bottoms on but I feel paranoid without my top." So we all put our tops back on but swam without our bottoms..ahah we're so cool.

We stayed at Liz's until like, eleven, then Joe and I left and went back to my house.

Saturday Cam called me around noon and asked if I wanted to go shopping, so I was like sureee. So Cam and I went shopping all day Saturday and she spent the night with me and then today we had to go to the carwash for cheerleading from 11-3.

The carwash was pretty fun..a lot of hot guys drove past haha. Cam and I were sign holders and like, we put on the signs "WILL FLASH FOR SERVICE" and like..every time a guy would come through he'd ask us to flash him..lmfao. We didn't but it brought in some damn good service haha.

But yeahhh. My loser boyfriend came in as well and told a bunch of his guys to come so like, for an hour all we did was wash Joe and his friends' trucks..lmfaoo. It was funny though. They brought in some good money too haha. We made a total of $1,100 today and I bet at least $100 of it was Joe's friends' doings haha.

And although I had tons of fun today, I'm glad it's over. =] It was hard work haha..and it was so effing hot.

BUT ANYWAYS. Cam went home after the carwash and I came home and fell asleep until 5..and then my mom woke me up and we ate dinner and then I got on here, and thennn I went over to Joe's for like, 20 minutes to see him haha..and then I came back and got on here.

So that was my big eventful weekend haha.

sjkfgldjkg I'm SO happy that I don't have to work at ALL this week..YES. Brooklyn is at her dad's house so YEEFUCKINHAW. I don't have many plans except for sleeping in all day and hopefully going out at night.

And after this week, I only have to babysit for ONE more week..and then school starts the 11th so YESSS. I'm pumped..I'm going to be a big senior baby..woohoo.

But um..this entry SUCKS haha. I just don't have it in me to update right now so here it is. ENJOYYY.

+ MY WEEKEND +

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 02:35:04 GMT

sdlfkh this weekend was maddd crazy. I'm still trying to recover from it all haha..woww. As if I didn't get enough sleep at Jordan's house last night? haha. Kay whateverrr. Here's how my weekend went down haha.

Friday I went and got my ring fitted haha. Joseph didn't have to work because he had the whole week off due to poison ivy, but! he's over it now so that's good. =D We took advantage of his day off though so him, Brooklyn, and I went to Zale's and got my ring fixed. I got it to fit my ring finger as opposed to my middle finger on my right hand though. The man that was resizing my ring told me that most everyone wears promise rings on their ring finger so I was like, okayyy. So now I wear it like most everyone haha. Which is good I guess? haha I don't know but yeahhh.

After we got my ring fitted we ate at Chick-Fil-A and then Joseph dropped me back off at Susan's and I finished my working day up.

I left Susan's at like, 4:40ish and went home, showered, got dressed and fixed my hair and all that jazz..then called Cam Bam to get the heads up on what we were doing for the night. She told me that September and Kelly both wanted to go see Wedding Crashers so we just went with the flow.

We all met up at the bank at like, 7:30, and from there we went to eat at Bearno's =D. We ordered like, the biggest pizza there haha..and we ate it all. Plussss, a basket of bread sticks haha. We were all like, stuffed, but poor Kelly was still hungry haha. But I can't blame her because she's feeding for two haha.

So to try to get her mind off of being hungry and eating, we karaoked..lmfao. It was hilariousss..dfklshd. All 6 of us got up there and the guy that was doing the machine was like, "so do you have a band name?" and we were like, "THE SEXXXXY SIX." haha..and he just laughed..and was like, "I have a song for you all."

So we were all waiting and then we hear.."Oh my God, Becky.." and we just like, died laughing haha..but we sang every word to it and had a gay 'ole time haha. We only got to karaoke like, 3 songs though because it was already like, 8:50, and we wanted to see the 9:15 movie so we left and went right across the street to Acme to see our movie.

dkhfklsh WEDDING CRASHERS WAS FUCKING HILARIOUS. Holy shitttt..I peed. Like, literally haha. I have never laughed so hard at a movie in my life..dflkhsl wow. I laughed more at that than I did at Anchorman and Napoleon Dynamite put together haha..it was sososo funny. EVERYONE should go see it..everyoneeee. I promise it's worth your ten dollars haha..I promise promise promise. SO GO SEE IT.

haha..so okay. That's what I thought of the movie haha. Timber, Cam, Liz, Kell, and Jordan loved it just as much as I did so yayyy. <3 haha.

BUT ANYWAYSSSS. After the movie we went back to Cam's house and got crazayyyy. We went swimming at midnight and it was sososo fun. Jeff called me while I was swimming [kay so JEFF..haha..last week while I was babysitting Brooklyn, Cam came home for her lunch break so her, Brooklyn, and I all went to McDonald's to get a bite to eat..and like, Cam was driving and she was flipping out while we were going through the drive-thru because Jeff was working haha..and I had never even heard of him before and she was like, he's this super hot guy that works here and I hardly ever see him but he's working today! haha..and so like, when we pulled up to the window Cam goes, "MY FRIEND THINKS YOU'RE HOT." And I was just like, whaaa? and I looked over and he was smiling..and then he closed the window..and Cam was like, "get my digital camera out of my purse..NOW." so I got it and she was like, "act like you're taking a picture of me and really take it of him." so when he opened the window back up I tried taking a picture of him while he was handing us our stuff, but I got it when he was messing with the cash register or something so it's a sideshot of him haha..but Cam was happy nonetheless and she was like, freaking out over his hotness haha..and I kept telling her to calm down and what not. but THENNN, I pull the napkins out of our bag and the one on top said "CALL ME" and it had a number on it and then it was signed "Jeff" haha..so Cam like, freaked the hell out and made me call him and I forgot to hide my ID before I called so he got my cellular number from that anddd he keeps calling me haha. He wanted to hang out with Cam and me so bad but like, we hadn't been together in a while so!] and asked if I wanted to hang out with him..and I was like, aslkhdakls I'M SWIMMING haha. And he was like, "where?" And so I told him and he was like, "is Cammi the girl that was driving the car you were in when I first saw you?" And I was like, "YES" haha..so he wanted to come hang out with us so I gave him directions to Cam's house and he came and swam haha.

He was pretty cool..he was a horndog though haha. The ground was soupy [lmfao..Cammi`s way of putting it] because of all the rain and there were mud puddles in her back yard haha..and so he was like, begging all 6 of us [well I guess 5 since Kelly couldn't do it] to mud wrestle haha..and Timber, Liz, and Jordan didn't want to do it because they have this weird fear of leeches or some shit haha..so Cam and I did it! lmfaooo. She kicked my ass haha..and I'll admit to that. She close lined me and I fell back right on my ass and bruised my tailbone and it still hurts like a bitch to sit down..dfhlskh THANKS CAM. haha.

BUT ANYWAYS. We stayed up all night doing stuff and then at like, 8 in the morning we all got tired and fell asleep and didn't wake back up until 3 in the afternoon..lmfao.

Kay so here goes SATURDAY.

Once we were all awake, we left. I went back home and tanned for about 20 minutes and then showered, got dressed, and fixed my hair like I do everyyy day..and then called Jordan to ask him what time he wanted everyone to start coming over..and then called Joe to tell him the game plan.

It was like, 5:30 by the time I was done with everything so I went over to Joseph's house and we went to Taco Bell and ate and then went to Jordan's.

anddd here's where all the juicy stuff begins haha. Jordan's party was the first real hardcore party I'd been to all summer so I got CEE-ARE-YOU-IN-KAY. dfklsh WOW. I started drinking almost as soon as I got there..and I don't remember much else haha. Joe was wasted too so he can't tell me what happened haha..but Ashley is telling me stuff that we did haha. She told me that Joe was singing John Cougar Mellencamp songs and falling over..and I was chasing cats? ahaha randommm?! But yeah..it sounds hilar. She also told me that when we all got in the jacuzzi that I took a bottle of vodka in with me and poured it on my chest and told Joe to lick it off? ahaha that's so trashy..and I can't picture my SOBER self doing that..but supposedly I did it wasted haha. But yeahhh. All I can really do is listen to the stories people tell me and hope it's not true haha.

Joe and I stayed at Jordan's all night because we were so out of it that we couldn't go home..and the only sober body there was Ashley and she had already left..so it was just all the wasted people crawling around haha. So we slept at Jordan's. =D

We didn't wake up until like, 2:30 today and when we woke up we were in Jordan's parents' bed haha..it was so weird. I was quite hungover and it SUCKED..my head was pounding and I was all nauseous..and I wound up puking all over the comforter. Joe and I had to take it off and hose it down outside [it was worse than the time the raccoon got in the copier..ahaha] then stick it in the washer. I told Jordan about it and he like, couldn't stop thanking me for cleaning it up haha..and then he told me he'd take care of drying it and making the bed and stuff so! Joe and I left on that note.

He dropped me off at like, 4:15, and I came in and popped like, 3 Advils and then took a hot shower and laid down and watched Newlyweds for a while. I also drank almost 5 bottles of Aquafina [I've been peeing allllllll day..skldgha rawr] and I started feeling a little bit better..but I felt 34902907x better when I woke up from my nap haha. I'm not quite sure what time I fell asleep but I didn't wake up until like, 7, haha so yayyy. I FEEL BETTER NOW.

But yeahhh! That was my weekend! Pretty fun, pretty fun. =D

However, this week doesn't seem like so much fun? Joe leaves for Georgetown College Football Camp Tuesday and won't be back until Friday so yeahhh..I'm going to miss him. I told him not to meet any girls there like he told me not to meet guys at cheer camp haha..so HOPEFULLY he'll listen. =D

The only plus about my week is that I got a new work schedule..YEEHAW. Susan got hers changed last week but it's not in effect until this week..so. My hours are 389423896x better! Monday and Wednesday I work from 8:30-5, Tuesday is my long day still so I'm working from 8:30-6:30 [every first Tuesday of the month I only work until 5:30], Thursdays I work from 8:30-3:30, and Fridays is 8:30-2:30, and I get weekends off so YEEHAW. I'm verrrrry excited. =D andandand Brooklyn is going to her dad's house not this week but next so I get the wholeeee week off. SCORE.

Ohoh and another plus is that I'm getting my senior pictures done Saturday! I was supposed to get them done this past Saturday but it was rainy and like, 3947907 of my pictures are going to be taken outside so I had to reschedule it. Hopefully it'll be sunny this Saturday so I can get them done and over with. =D

BUT ANYWAYS. I'm done with this entry sososo..comment me! <3

+ THE BiG ONE YEAR +

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 01:24:18 GMT

So right now I can picture Joseph and I being together forever. As crazy as it sounds coming from a 17 year old it's the truth..and if you were me and had the most amazing time of your life 2 nights ago with the man you loved, you'd be saying the same thing..honestly. So here's the big one year anniversary entry..enjoy.<3

Kay so like, I could hardly sleep at all the night before..I was just that excited. I couldn't stop thinking about what he had planned for us and if he was going to like the presents I got for him and everything..and so like, all the anxiousness only lead to about 3 hours of sleep haha. But surprisingly I wasn't tired the next morning at work so that was good. But like, I was in a terrible mood because I had to work and all I wanted was to take the day off to be with Joe but it wasn't going to happen..so I was just like, bitter towards everyone but him haha. It was kind of funny actually because like, I was mad at my mom because she was like, "don't stay out too late with Joe tonight because you have to work tomorrow." So we got in this little mid-morning fight and then Joe called and I was all sweet and stuff to him haha..and my mom just looked at me really weird then left for her work haha.

But! My day brightened up at noon because a dozen roses were sent to Susan's house for me! The tag on them said, "happy one year anniversary..can't wait until tonight. Love You, Joe." And when I read it I got into this like, instantly great mood. I picked up Brooklyn and spun her around and kissed her a thousand times haha..and all she did was laugh. And before she laid down for her nap as opposed to reading her a story, I read her mine and Joe's fairy tale romance book. [kayyy so like, I made him a fairy tale book of our relationship as part of his one year anniversary gift..and like, I wrote out a story of everything that's happened between us through the past year..and it turned out to be 23 pages long..and on each different page I had a picture of us..and on last page I taped on the diary entry I wrote about him when we first met..and then like, there was an empty page in front of that so I wrote out a few verses from "our" song and I put in different love quotes and decorated it all pretty haha..so yeahhh. And the title of the whole book was A Fairy Tale Romance..haaaa so original, eh?]

haha..so my working day was filled with anniversary excitement. I anticipated 4:30 like, the wholeeee day..so when the clock finally hit it I was ready to go haha. Susan arrived home on time but before she could even say anything to me I was out the door haha. I like, raced home and showered and got all dolled up and called Joe..and he was just about ready to get in the shower so I kind of just paced around. I changed clothes like, 3 times haha..and then my sister came upstairs and was like, "Joe just pulled up." So I like, freaked out and then got it together really quick and waited for the doorbell to ring. And when it did I made my sister answer it so I could have a nice little entrance haha [so cliché I know..but whatever.] And so when I heard him walk in, I slowly started to walk down the stairs..and eventually I saw him and he looked up at me and smiled and winked..and then all of the sudden I got really nervous. It was sdhflksh SO weird haha..like, my knees almost gave out and my stomach was knotting and ahh..it was weird but it felt good? ahaha..but yeah. Back to the story.

Once I came down he took my hand and we kissed and then he escorted me out to his truck [he even opened the door for me haha..what a gentleman] and we left. I had no clue WHERE we were going and it felt like we were driving forever..and the only thing he told me was not to look in the bed of his truck. haha so I was like, "kayyy whatever."

So like, after an hour of driving we arrived at this park playground thing and I thought we were lost and he was just going to turn around, but he parked right beside the park [ahaha saying that makes me giggle] and was like, "we're here." And at that point I was sdhklah SO confused haha..but once we got out he told me to go stand behind this big tree while he did something. So I stood behind this huge weeping willow for like, 5 or so minutes..and then he finally said, "okay I'm ready." So I got half way around this big tree and then I saw a picnic blanket on the ground with a basket on it and he was standing right beside it..and then it clicked in my head..my dream date was a picnic in a park with a playground haha..and Iike, I looked up at him and I said, "you're good." And he kind of laughed and was like, "thank September for this idea." And even though I know September had probably planned out the whole evening I didn't care haha..I had a great time anyway.

Kayyy so anyways, we had peanut butter and jelly sandwiches with Sun Chips and Sprite for our dinner haha. Joe had packed like, 4903479074 PB&Js so we both ate like, 3 ahaha..and like, I was trying so hard not to laugh and I guess he could tell because he was like, "it's okay you can laugh." So I just like, lost it. I don't know what was so funny but I couldn't stop once I started..and it kind of reminded me of our first date when he asked if I wanted salt and I laughed really hard at him haha..so I guess it was just the nervous giggles? I don't know..but he looked at me and kind of laughed and then I just kind of stopped and leaned over to him and gave him a huge kiss..and I was like, "your dinner kicks ass." And he laughed and was like, "hunny I don't like it when you curse..you have such a pretty mouth." And I laughed a little and then gave him another kiss which soon lead to a series of more kisses..and then he just kind of pulled away and was like, "hold on."

So while I was holding he packed our food back into the basket and put it to the side..and then pulled me really close to him and we laid down and watched the sun set. dkldklh it was SO pretty..the sky was all pinkish orangeish and the sun sat right over this big hill..ahh it was so Hollywood and I LOVED it haha. But the most romantic part of it all was that we didn't say one word to each other the whole time..we just kind of held each other and kissed..sdkfhh ahh haha. It was perfect..but it doesn't even compare to what went on later. =D

Kay so like, when the sun set behind the big hill Joe was like, "do you want to go swing?" And of course I was like, "sureeee!" haha..so he picked up the blanket and put it in the back of his truck then he gave me a piggy back ride to the swingset haha. There were only like, 2 swings so I sat down and told him to pop a squat beside me haha..but instead he pushed me! So that was nice. I don't know how long we stayed on the swings but it felt like forever..then we got bored so we played on this fort thing haha.

We stayed at the playground until dark and then he was like, "I think it's time to go." So we walked hand in hand back to his truck but! when we got to it he didn't open the door for me..instead he dropped the tailgate and was like, "hop in." haha so I got in and then he got in after me..and we laid down together and watched the stars this time! He tried pointing out the big dipper to me but I don't think it was the big dipper haha..it looked like a shoe to me haha..but whateverrr. We watched the stars for quite some time and then he was like, "oh I almost forgot!" And he like, got up really fast and hopped out of the truck and got into the cab and came out and was like, "close your eyes."

So I closed my eyes and he grabbed my hand and slipped a ring onto my middle finger on my right hand and then was like, "okay you can open them now." And when I opened my eyes my heart like..sank haha. It was a 3 stone promise ring [kay so I didn't know it was a promise ring then but he explained it to me later haha]..and it had a silver band and then 3 diamonds in the center [hense the three stone part haha] but the middle diamond was bigger than the other 2..so it was sdklhfsklh uber pretty..and like, all I could do was squeal haha. I jumped up and gave him this hugeeee hug and kissed him a thousand times and then looked at the ring a little more haha..and he was like, "do you like it?" And I got all smart assy about it and was like, "nooo I'm just happy for no reason?" ahaha..and he kind of like, laughed and was like, "it's a promise ring." And I was like, "it's got a lot of bling on it to be just a promise ring" haha..and then he informed me that the 3 diamonds stood for the past, the present, and the future..so I was like, "awww JOSEPH RYANNN!" and gave him another hug and he was like, "yeah when I went birthday shopping for you a couple of months ago I saw one similar to it and wanted to get it for you for Valentine's Day..but I couldn't come up with the money so I started saving and waited for another special occasion..and when I went shopping for you for our one year, the ring I wanted for you wasn't there so I got that one instead." dsklhs so the story behind it was beautifulllllllllll haha. The only sucky part is that we have to go and get it sized because it's a little big on my finger haha..and I don't want to wear it on any other finger soo..when the opportunity arises, we're going to Zale's to get it fitted.

BUT ANYWAYS. After I freaked out about the ring we went back to my house. At my house I gave him one of his presents [the Ohio State Fossil watch] but told him he wouldn't get the other until he was leaving and wasn't allowed to open it until he got home haha. So he was all like, anxious about it haha..but I made him wait. And while we waited we made little Holly and Joe one year anniversary cookies haha. They turned out really gooey and hot so when he went to feed me a cookie, it broke in half and went all down my shirt and straight onto the floor haha. We both like, laughed really hard about it and then cleaned it up haha..so that was the baking highlight of the night haha.

We ate like, half of the cookies and then got sick haha..so we decided to lay down and watch a movie. Welllllllll..about half way through the movie I fell asleep so he finished watching it..and when it was over he woke me up and told me happy anniversary again..and I thanked him for the amazinggg night..and we kissed for a long time and then I walked him out to his truck and gave him his other present and then kissed some more..and then he left so I went back upstairs and went to bed. I had a hard time sleeping though because I kept replaying every memory from the night in my head and dfhdfklh..thinking about it all just gave me goosebumps haha. I finally fell asleep about, 3:30 though haha..so I guess that was good? Work was a biotch Friday though..but Joseph made it better when he called and told me how much he liked the fairy tale book and how he kept reading it over and over haha..so yayyy..my hard work DID pay off. =D

SO after reading all that you can probably tell why I can picture Joseph and I being together forever haha..and if you don't well then..you're gayyyyyy haha. Nah I'm just joking but um..I'm done with this entry so leave me some love! te amoooo<3

+ HOLiDAY +

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 00:03:43 GMT

Well my 4th of July was pretty eventful! I was at Curry's from noon until like, 7. It was pretty fun haha..a lot of people showed up so I stayed social the whole day. We grilled out and swam and played volleyball..and then we played with poppers on her patio and sidewalk haha. They were uber fun but they got annoying so quick..sdklhklh rawr. Derek threw one down as hard as he could and it landed on the top of my foot and hurt like a bitch. Well, it wasn't that it hurt so much but it stung really bad for a long time so it sucked haha. But I got over it and threw one at him and it popped on his back so SCORE for Holler haha.

but anywayssss. Joe came and picked me up from Curry's a little before 7 and we left for Scott's. When we got there hardly anyone was there and like, Scott always throws the best parties so we were kinda wondering what was going on..and thennnnn we figured out no one was showing up because it was BYOB and everyone is too big of a pussy to jack a bottle of alcohol from their parents for themselves haha. But it really didn't bother Joe and I because we weren't out to get drunk..just to have a good time. =D So we hung out with the people that were there and we played pool and cards and karaoked some so it ended up being pretty fun. But Joe and I got bored after a while so we left right before they shot off fireworks.

We weren't really sure what to do after that so we went back to my house and sat on my balcony with lawn chairs and blankets and watched the fireworks that were being shot off from the country club beside my subdivison haha. It was actually quite romantical..we got to kiss a lot and snuggle haha. The only sucky part was that it started pouring down raining on us so we had to run into my room and watch the fireworks from my window haha. They didn't last very much longer because like, the fireworks just died in the air? ahaha it was so weird but it cracked us up. Like, seriously, we probably laughed for 5 minutes over this one firework that shot up in the air and just kind of puttered around and then burned out ahaha. We're so gay together I swear..but that's what I love about being with my boy.<3

haha but yeahhh! After the firework show we watched reruns of Home Improvement in my room and shared a bowl of Sherbet ice cream haha. We stayed up until like, 12:30ish then we both got tired so he left and I went to bed.

And today was pretty much uneventful. I took Brooklyn to the mall with me and got Joe's present..then went back to Susan's house and Brooklyn and I watched The Incredibles together but she fell asleep so I finished making Joe's other present..and before I knew it Susan was home! So I left, came back here, ate supper, showered, watched a little tv and then got on. And ta daaaa..here I am! haha..I figured I'd update today because tomorrow after work I'm going to my sister's softball game and then I promised her we could have a "girl's night" together since we really don't hang out all that often even though we're sisters haha..so yeahhh. And then Thursday is the big day so I won't be on then either..and Friday I don't know what I'm doing but! Saturday I'm going wedding/bridesmaid's dress shopping with Meghan so! I won't be on much. However, I can say that I know my next update will be about the one year anniversary so be prepared! andddd that's all I have to say for now. THE END.

+ LA LA LA +

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 20:08:46 GMT

Kay so I really don't know how to open this entry so I'm just going to update about the highlights of my week haha.

Cheer Camp
Kay so my last camp ever kicked ass =D. I got the All American Cheerleader award [second year in a row bitches..yeehaw] and a bunch of ribbons for like, stunts&jumps and stuff..so that was pretty awesome haha. The squad got a lot of team awards too..we got Top Team Finalist, Team Award, Stunt Smart Award, Superior and Excellent Ribbons, and the infamous Spirit Stick haha. And then the JV and varsity combined squads and received a bid to the NCA National Championships..so SCORE..we came out winners haha.

But besides all the awards and stuff, camp was a blastttt. Since I'm varsity captain I got to pick the song we did our in-camp competition dance to..and I picked the Tootsie Roll basketball remix..ahh it was so fun. Ashley and I made the dance up and it took a whole day to teach..but once everyone learned it we couldn't stop doing it haha. We would turn our music up really loud in our dorms at night and do our dance haha..and like, I can't count how many girls from different squads would be walking down the hallway and hear our music and like, come in our room and start dancing with us haha. It was sososo funnnn haha. And on the last day when we had all of our in-camp competitions, we came in 2nd place with our dance..so YEEHAW. Lady whitefaces prevailed again haha.

BUT ANYWAYS. The whole time I was at camp I kept reminiscing of last year when I met Joseph..ahh. One night September and I even walked down to the baseball field where I first saw Joe play and we saw these guys practicing and I was like, and this is where I found my future haha. I almost cried sitting on the bleachers haha..I don't know why I almost did though haha..it was weird haha. but yeah. I'm so excited that our one year anniversary is in 4 days! The thing I've been working on for him is almost done and Tuesday I'm hauling Brooklyn to the mall with me and getting him the present I have picked out for him so yeehawww..all of this one year jazz is finally piecing together. =D

But um, back to my camping experience haha. The last day we were there after competition was over and awards were handed out, we had the senior awards program..ahh sad freakin' day. They had a slideshow of pictures of all the different senior girls from camp and the pictures dated all the way back to our very first camp. When they showed me I was up in a build with this big crooked smile on my face and my hair was like, a curly mess haha..and like, I started laughing really hard..and then they showed September and her hair was like..white blonde and really long and thin and like ahhh..it was so cute haha.

I was holding up okay until they started playing this sad slowish type of song along with the pictures and then I just lost it..dfglkh it was bad. I cried for like ever haha..all through the slide show..and when they were handing out our picture albums from the past years..ahh I just couldn't stop. All I could think about was that I'm NEVER going back there..ever..and it's sad. I've been going there since I was in 5th grade..so for like, 7 years of my life cheer camp has been part of my summer and now it's just..goneee. ahh I'm going to cry just thinking about it so enough of that!

but yeahhhh..that's pretty much all the highlights of cheer camp. moving on.

My Weekend
ah so my weekend wasn't the greatest. I got back Friday at like, 8:30ish..and I was pooped so I went to bed haha..pathetic I know..going to be at 8:30 on a Friday night but whateverrr..I got a good sleep haha. I woke up at like, 10 o'clock on Saturday though so I called Joe and woke him up..and while on the phone we discussed our plans for the day and he told me he had to tell me something..so I was like alrighttttt. I was scared that it was bad about "us" so I got ready as quick as I could and went over to his house and after I gave him a hug and kiss I was like, "tell me."

And what he told me was that his mom has breast cancer. =[ He found out about it Thursday while I was at camp but he didn't want to tell me and upset me while I was there so he just waited. I didn't know what to tell him really so I didn't say much besides I was sorry..and all I could do was hug him and kiss him. He kind of cried but not really..but I like, lost it. Even though his mom and I weren't all that close it's still REALLY sad..pretty much depressing..and for the family to have to go through what they're going to have to go through is going to be rough..so yeahhh. All they're doing right now is praying and prayers and hope is really all anyone has in a time like that so yeahhh. I'm praying too and if you read this, your prayers are much appreciated. <3

but anyways. That was kind of the bummer for the weekend but we tried to make the best of it. We went out to eat at Chick-Fil-A and then went and saw Bewitched. After the movie was over we went and shopped around a little and then went back to his house and hung out. We decided not to go to Jordan's party for various reasons..and I'm kind of glad we didn't go because we had a lot of fun just hanging around. We played a 4 hour game of Disney Monopoly with Brett and Joe won haha..I came in second and Brett came in last haha..but it was fun. When we got done playing we watched part of Varsity Blues then I went home and went to bed. =D

This morning I woke up at like, 11ish and showered and then got on the computer..then I ran to Wal-Green's to drop off my camera for developing and I stopped at Zesto's and got an ice cream..then I came back to my house and I called Joseph then got on here..and that's all I've done today!

kdlfhskl I'm SO glad I don't have to work tomorrow! It's quite a relief actually haha. Joe and I are hitting different parties which is exciting..I'm going to Curry's for a little while and he'll be at Tyler's..then when he's done at Tyler's he's going over to Curdawg's and then we're leaving for Scott's..so YEEHAW haha..I'm pumped. =D

But it sucks that the 4th of July is on a Monday? haa I have to work Tuesday and it's my long day so that blows. But! Like I said earlier Brooklyn and I are going to the mall so that won't be that bad. Maybe I can dump her off with Cammi and go home early? haha I keed I keed..but yeah. It would be nice.

ANYWAYS. That's all I really have to say..this is way longer than I expected and I'm kind of sick of typing so I'm going to go now! I don't know when my next update will be..definitely not tomorrow, Tuesday maybe, Wednesday I won't if I updated on Tuesday..and then Thursday OF COURSE NOT..it's the big one year..and Friday probably not because I'm never home on Friday's..so yeahhh whatever. I'll update when I can..so um..until thennn..te amo.<3

+ CAMPiNG +

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 21:33:07 GMT

Well this weekend was really fun but I'm still in a bitchy mood because the simple fact that I was camping..and I hate camping. rahhh..but I'm still going to update about my weekend so! here goes nothing.

Kay so Friday after Joseph and I got done shopping, we came back to my house and put all our stuff up and then packed and left. When we got to the campground we popped our little tent beside my family's tent and fixed everything up inside and since we had to do all of that in 98 degree weather, we got reallllly hot so we took my dad's boat out. It was pretty nice..the sun was setting and there was somewhat of a breeze..so we got cooled off pretty quick. The only sucky part was that my sister and her friend had to go with us and they were complaining about wanting to tube and water ski the whole time and I was just like, ahh we're not getting the damn tube or skis out. I'm pretty sure they got the picture after that.

Anyways. We stayed on the water for like, an hour then came back and ate and sat around the campfire with my Aunt Rena, Uncle Richard, my cousin Kelly, and then my family until we went to bed. The campfire part wasn't bad though because it was my favorite aunt and uncle and cousin haha..so a lot of funny stuff happened. One of the funniest things though was when Joe was telling this story about how when he was 15, him and his friend were in his friend's kitchen and they saw a mouse..so they put peanut butter out for it and when it came out to get the peanut butter they would try to shoot it with a pellet gun..and when he got done telling his story I just looked at him and I was like, "that's retarded." And then not even a second later, like, my chair tipped over and I fell into my uncle's lap haha. It was weird for me but was really funny haha.

But yeahhh..we went to bed at like, 11:45 and as soon as I hit the pillow I was out of it. So I slept really good Friday night so on Saturday I wasn't in a bitchy mood.

But! Saturday put me in a bitchy mood. I woke up and went to the shower house and showered and blow-dryed and flat ironed my hair..came back to the campground, sat around for a little bit, ate breakfast..and then Joseph and I decided to take a little walk around. Well, on our little walk we saw Adam and his friends at their campsite and I was like, "ADAMMMM!" so I ran over to him and gave him a big hug and everything was cool..then he was like, "do you all want to go out on our boat today?" And I asked Joe and he was all for it so I was like, "sureee."

So then I walked back to our campsite and told my parents I was going with Adam instead of them and after a minute of arguing, they finally agreed so Joe and I packed up all our stuff and then headed out with Adam.

Well, I can't recall one fun time on that boat. As soon as we got on the water I was like, "Adam I'm going to put a CD in, okay?" And he goes,"we're not listening to any of that Dirty Dancing shit." And I was like, "umm okay." [it really had never crossed my mind to listen to the Dirty Dancing soundtrack? haha] So I put in a CD and we were listening to it and we had the music up really loud..and the guys were drinking and I was laying out..and then like, we stopped to get in the water and cool off and when we hopped in, Adam pulled me as close as he could to him and was like, hanging onto me and trying to kiss on my neck and shit..and Joe was RIGHT there..so I got pissed off because he was doing that and I was like, yelling at him and telling him to get the fuck off me..and we got into this big fight [he took it as this big joke] and he was drunk..and he kept calling me a slut and a tease..and then he brought up 2 years ago when I supposedly begged him to have sex with me..and I got all pissed off and went back to the boat and sat with Joe and I was crying and Joe was telling me not to worry about it..and then I told Adam to take Joe and I back to the dock..and he was like, refusing to..so I started crying even more and Adam's friends were telling him to take us back so he finally did..so Joe and I hopped off and went back to camp.

When we got back to camp we sat around for a while so I could cool off a little bit..and I kept apologizing to Joe and telling him I loved him over and over..and he was like, "baby don't worry about it." So he made me feel 3047230799073x better and once I got cheered up we loaded our jet skis onto the back of his truck and went back to the water and played on our jet skis all day. It was quite fun..I had a good time haha. It kept my mind off of things and yeahhh..it made my day. =D

We played on the water almost 5 hours..and when we got hungry we docked our jet skis and went back to camp and showered and ate supper then sat around the campfire again with my favorite aunt and uncle and cousin haha. We made smores and I had like, 4 of them haha. I kept eating them because they were so good and because I didn't have to make them myself haha..I love my boy.

haha but anyways..after everyone went to bed that night, Joe and I took the trail behind our tent right down to the lake and sat on big rocks by the shore. He had his arm wrapped around me and we kept kissing and stuff..it was the romantic night I kept picturing in my head before we left..only it was much better than what I had planned out. The moon was really bright and it wasn't overcast or anything..and we even saw 3 shooting stars haha. We were down there for like, an hour and a half, then got tired so we walked hand in hand back to our tent. We cuddled for a long time and whispered back and forth before we finally fell asleep so yeahhhh..it made my camping experience 3907490237907x better. =]

On Sunday morning we woke up and ate breakfast and after that packed everything up and went home. Joe dropped me off at around noonish..and when I got in I showered, blow dryed my hair, took a nap until 3:30, then woke up and read part of a book, got on here and here I am! I'm not in the best mood ever though but I'm glad to be home. =]

On a lighter note, I leave at 8:30 in the morning tomorrow for cheer camp. But like, I'm depressing over it because it's my last cheer camp EVER. I can't emphasize how sad that is..sdfhsdlkh ahh. The only thing that's making it better is that I'm varsity captain so when we do our dance to compete with at camp, I get to pick the song we do it to and the co-captain and I both create it..so YEEHAW. I'm important this year haha.

Another reason I'm excited is because Joe and I met while I was at cheer camp last year so it's bringing back memories [and it means our one year is right around the corner]. =D Joe keeps telling me,"don't meet and fall in love with any guys while you're there" haha..it's quite funny. He knows I won't but heyyy..whatever floats his boat.

But anyways. I guess I'm done updating for now..I won't update again until next Sunday probably because cheer camp is Monday-Friday..Saturday I'm going to be with Joe all day then we're going to Jordan's party that night..and Sunday I'm taking off work to relax..so yeahhh. Until then, au revoir!

+ HM +

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 00:43:53 GMT

Well I wasn't going to update until tomorrow..but! I just found out that Joe took the day off work so he wouldn't be all tired camping so we're going shopping all day instead of him working and me sitting on my ass! I'm pretty excited actually..I have a shit load of money to spend so yayyy haha. I'm not burning holes in Joe's wallet this time haha. And it's shopping..who's not excited about shopping?! The last item of clothing I bought was my brown AE shirt that says "some girls are born lucky" on it and that shirt is like..on sale now so it's been a while haha. So yesss..a new wardrobe update for holla impalla. =D

And I guess since we'll be shopping all day and then going to the campsite at night I can't really update..and I'm not going to stop by my house to update this thing haha..el lameageee haha. But yeahhh..so I'm updating tonight.

I'm really excited about camping though..my parents are actually going to let Joseph and I pop our own tent! haha..I know it doesn't sound all that great but it kinda like..shocked me? haha..because like, they know that I'm on the BCP and they've found condoms in my room so if they put 2 and 2 together they'll get it haha..but! Joseph and I definitely are not doing that in a tent [not only because we're with family..but because it brings back too many memories haaa]. BUT ANYWAYS. I can't wait to get on the water and go boating and water ski and kneeboard and jet ski! We're taking my brother's, my sister's, and my jet skiis so YAY. And since Joseph and I are taking his truck he's going to hook his up..so even more fun haha. But besides going out on the water..I can't wait for the campfires and walking around the campground at night..and telling stories around the campfire and stuff haha. Plus I can see a romantic or night or 2 down by the lake with my boy haha..so yay.

And another thing I'm looking forward to is ADAM. I haven't seen the kid since we all went snowboarding after a basketball game in January/February haha. He told me him & a bunch of friends are camping at the same grounds as us this weekend so we'll probably all go out on jet skis one day or something..who knows? But yeahhh..I'm pumped.

But um, that's pretty much what my weekend is looking like for me! I don't have much else to say so I'll update on Sunday when I get back and everything..so yeahh..until next time, byeee!

+ LONG WEEKEND +

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 17:56:42 GMT

Well this weekend was fun. Friday after work I went home and showered and everything..and then Joe picked me up at like, 7:30ish and we went out on our date! haha. We ate at Joe's Crab Shack and then went put-putting! ahh funnest thing EVER. We went to the new place on Bardgetown Road and it was effing fun! It was pretty easy even though I still sucked big time. Joe kept having to get behind me to help me with my stance and stuff haha..it was pretty funny actually. We played 2 rounds and he beat me in both..rahh haha. But I had a lot of fun so that was good! After we were done we went back to my house and laid on my bed and talked for a loooong time. We mostly talked about how our one year is right around the corner..and as of today it's EIGHTEEN days. SCORE. So yeahhh..I'm PUMPED. haha..but anywaysss. He left at around midnight and I went to bed after he got home and called me. =]

SO that was my Friday. Yesterday I didn't wake up until like, 12:30..so when I got up and drank my chocolate milk I showered and got ready and left for Kelly's baby shower. It was from 3-6 and it was greatttttt fun! We had it at Cammi's house so that was pretty cool..everything was done up in pink and stuff haha. We played a lot of babyish games and she opened presents and got a shittttttt load of stuff. I got her a huge diaper bag and filled it with bottles and pacifiers and diapers of course haha..and I bought this pink fleece blanket and my grandma stitched "MACKENZIE" on the bottom of it so I gave that to her..and I also got her a card and that was that haha. She came out with a lot more stuff than she needed though..considering the fact she had a baby shower 2 weekends ago with her relatives haha..so yeahhh. But it all turned out well and I've never been so excited for someone to have a baby! haha. I can't wait until August 11th! Mackenzie's first day in this worlddd! haha.

But ANYWAYSSS. After her baby shower September and Cammi came home with me and we got all dolled up and then went out to eat at Hard Rock Cafe in the Ville..it was pretty good. We ran into Ryan Churchill [and friends] up there and I hadn't seen Ryan since last summer so I was verrrrrry excited. He's out of college for the summer so we promised to hang out a lot haha. but yeahhhh. We pushed a table together with them and ate and Ryan paid for my meal..aww I lubbb him haha. but anyways. After we ate Ryan invited us back to his house to play cards so we did that and stayed there until like, 1 in the morning haha. Then we were all getting tired so I left and Cammi and September stayed the night with me. Andddd..that was my Saturday!

Today I woke up and went to church and September and Cammi went with me. I thought I was going to be working today from 8-2 but Susan left me a voicemail sometime last night and told me that Brooklyn went to her dad's house this weekend to spend Father's Day with him so I was off work..so CHEERS to that. but anywaysss. After church, September and Cammi went home and my family, my grandparents and Meghan's family and her grandparents all went out to eat together at Rocky's for Father's Day. I sat by Jordan at the table and I literally thought I was going to piss my pants because he was making me laugh so hard. He was throwing pieces of straw paper in his grandma's hair and she had NO idea haha..she was just talking away and there was like, a mound of straw paper in her hair. LMFAO. I was laughing so hard that I had to get up and leave the table haha..it was crazzayyyy haha. It went on for a while then Kelley told Jordan to grow up and stop so that was that haha. but yeahhh. I thought it was pretty funny.

anyways. After we ate and the dads opened their presents we left and came back to my house and that's where I'm at now. Later today, at like, 5:00ish I'm going over to Joe's house and we're taking his dad [and his family] out to Applebee's for Father's Day and then going to Galyan's to let him pick out his present. We already bought him Hitch on DVD and got him a card but it doesn't compare to what we bought my dad so we're just going to let him pick something out and pay for it haha. So yeahhh..that's my day in a nutshell. I'm going to be at Joseph's for a while tonight and then it's work tomorrow and for the rest of the week..and then this Friday-Sunday my mom's side of the family is going camping and Joseph is coming with me..and then the 27th-1st is my LAST cheer camp ever..so rahhh my schedule is packed. I'll update whenever I can though so I guess until next time..te queiro! <3

+ DOUBLE HEADER +

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 21:43:38 GMT

Well today was like, my funnest day of babysitting haha. I took Brooklyn to Joe's double header at noon and she didn't misbehave once. She sat beside me on the top row of the bleachers with her little sunglasses on and every time Joe would be on deck I'd be like, "Brooky it's Joe!" and she'd clap and stuff haha..it was cuteee! I sat beside Brooke and Brandi while they watched their men play so that was fun. We laughed pretty much the whole time and stood up and clapped and started cheers for them haha. Brooklyn joined in on the fun and made me lift her up and stuff..and I taught her a little cheer and showed her the hand movements and stuff haa. I'm seriously going to warp this girl into cheerleading and gymnastics..Cammi already has basketball so they need a cheerleader in their family haha.

But yeahhh..Joe's games were over at 4:15ish so he left with Brooklyn and me and we all went out to Dairy Queen and got ice creams haha..it was pretty fun. Brooklyn got this little baby cone..ahhh it was so adorable watching her eat it. When we were in line waiting for it I was holding her on my hip and Joe was tickling her and everyone at the counter was like, "aww! She's adorable! How old is she?" And I was like, "she just turned 2 on the 11th." And they were like, "aww! You all are a cute family!" And Joe and I just kind of like, looked at each other and laughed and went on with our business. I really didn't care if they thought it was mine and Joe's kid even though it doesn't look a thing like either of us haha..she's so effing adorable and I'd love to be her mom any day haha.

Anywaysss..we ate our ice cream on the way back to Susan's house and she was already there when we got home so that was kind of nice..I got off work 15 minutes early..YEEHAW haha. But during the 15 minutes I would have normally spent driving home I had to go drop Joe off at Highland so he could pick up his truck then I drove back home and now I'm here..yayyy. Tomorrow Joe isn't doing anything so we're going to take Brooklyn to Chuck E. Cheese's to like, just mess around and get something to eat or whatever haha..so it should be fun. Butttt! I think I'm going to go for now..LOVESSS. <3

+ JESSE CONCERT +

Sun, 12 Jun 2005 19:02:03 GMT

lmfao. Yesterday was the funniest day of my entire life next to the time I watched Joe fall down an entire flight of steps on his stomach. ahahah.

Kay so..Jesse was playing at King`s Island in Cinnci and it was only September and me so we left 3 and a half hours before the park opened because it`s a 2 and a half hour drive from here plus I knew we`d stop and I was leaving time just in case we got lost ahahah. But before we left, we took colored shoe polish and wrote all over my car. We wrote "HONK FOR JESSE" and taped pictures up on my back windows from the inside and put hearts beside them and put "JESSE IS HOTTER THAN YOU" and stuff haha..it was fucking hilarious. We tried to get as teenybopper as we could get so the night before she came over like, at midnight and we made shirts. We went to wal-mart at like, 1 in the morning and bought a whole bunch of shit. We got spray paint, iron ons, beads, face paint, glitter in every type of container, and tee-shirt paint haha. It came out to be like, $40 so it sucked but the shirts turned out awesome haha. Mine was hot pink with black writing and hers was bright yellow with royal blue writing. hahaha..mine said "JESSE`S BIOTCH" in 10 foot tall letters on the front and on the back it said HOLLER on the top and we ironed on this big picture of Jesse. I also cut the sleeves off of mine and cut up the side and then tied it with beads haha. It was all glittery and had little hearts and stuff on it haha..it was way cute. I wore my black Soffe nylon shorts and had my hair up in buns and wrote "J" on one cheek and "MAC" on the other..and I had my big ugly jewelry on so I was really cool. September looked really cute too, her shirt was the same style as mine with the whole beads and everything..but she had JMAC going down the front of hers in tall letters and SEPTEMBER on the top back with an ironed on picture of Jesse. her hair was the same of mine and she had "BIG" on one cheek and "MAC" on the other haha.

mglhfdlkh anyways. Now for the funny parts haha. We walked around King`s Island like that ALL day..and everyone was looking at us weird and this one girl that got behind us in line for a roller coaster was like, "you all really like jesse don`t you?" and we were like, "YES!" and she goes, "his music sucks but he`s hot so that`s why I`m going to the concert." And I kind of looked at September and I looked back at the girl and I go, "HIS MUSIC DOES NOT FUCKING SUCK..YOU TRY TO GET OUT THERE AND DO IT." and I made this big scene ahaha..it was great. Even though his music does suck and everyone knows it I still felt like being a teenybopper hXc and going off on her ass for the fun of it lmfao. And when I turned back around, the whole wait I was like, "I can`t believe the IMMATURITY of some people to say he sucks." ahaha it was awesome.

Then during random parts of the day we would run and jump and go, "JESSE MCCARTNEY CONCERT IN 3 HOURS!" or whatever haha. So many people thought we were fucked up in the head..lmfao. But it was sososo fun! I didn`t get embarassed once the whole day haha. And throughout the park there were signs saying "JESSE MCCARTNEY, JUNE 11th, 7:30pm" and every time we saw a poster like that we`d scream and point lmfao. It was hysterical. Then there was like, a group of girls our age and they saw us doing that and they joined in on it lmfao. It was so funny. We walked around with them for a little bit and we made big scenes with them haha. At one point we were at the front of the park where there`s this huge pool/fountain thingy and we all hopped up on the cement ledge and sang "Beautiful Soul" at the top of our lungs lmfao. People started throwing loose change at us haha so when we were done we picked it all up and had a grand total of $1.01. FUCK YEAH.

AND THEN..the highlight of my day was when we saw Jesse walking through the park! ahahah it was like, crowded as hell and Timber and I were eating our dippin dots and then we saw a bunch of people coming our direction and I turned around and saw a bunch of big guys with a little blonde one in the center and I turned back around and said, "I`m sure Jesse McCartney just didn`t walk past us." and September goes, "are you serious?" and I was like, "um I think so." And so we both turned back around and it was him and she was like, "yeah it`s definitely him." So we just kept walking and then I go, "OH MY FUCKING GOD! JESSE MCCARTNEY!" and turned around and sprinted towards him hahaha. A couple of girls beat us to him but once we eventually got to him I thought I was going to pass the fuck out. I told myself if I saw him to remain calm the whole time and I didn`t. I was all like, nervous and dropping stuff haha. He told us he liked our shirts and signed them for us..he signed mine on the stomach and on the back where his picture was so I can never wash that shirt again because when you wash iron on shirts, they peel and I don`t want his autograph to peel hahah so yeah. It was pretty interesting though. We couldn`t take pictures at that time because he had to go do a sound check or whatever and he was in a hurry..but he did sign mine and September`s shirts and gave us a hug hahah. He hugged September first and I was like, "I don`t get one?" and he goes, "come here sweet thing" and gave me one. lmfao. So like, after our little encounter we power walked to the second power all day until the concert started haha. It was great. dhfsklhklh wowww haha..it makes me all excited just talking about it.

but yeahhh. The concert was pretty good. It was supposed to be outside but! it had been sprinkling on and off all day and there was thunder and dark skies so they moved him into the theater where they have broadway plays and stuff performed inside the park..so that was nice. We had 3rd row and got awesome pictures..and after the concert we went to the signing and got pictures of him and with him so that was pretty awesome. I was a lot calmer this time and he cut up a little more. He asked us how old we were and I was so embarassed to say 17 because I was acting so immature but I did anyway and he just kind of nodded and was like, "that`s cool." haha..so that was pretty much our conversation..all of 30 seconds haha.

Anywaysss..that`s pretty much it haha. We left after the concert and drove home but on the way back we pulled over at a gas station to look at the pictures September took on her digital and they turned out pretty good. I put them on my photobucket so at the end of this entry I`ll put the link to it so anyone who cares can look at them haha. so! That`s about it..this entry is quite long and I`m sick of telling this story over and over again haha..so au revoir!

PiCTURES
http://photobucket.com/albums/y166/x__BADUNKADUNK/Jesse%20McCartney%20Concert/

+ 11 MONTHS +

Thu, 09 Jun 2005 22:16:54 GMT

Kay so even though mine&Joseph's 11 months was 2 days ago I'm still going to make this journal entry about it haha..so CHEERS.

Kay well Tuesday [the day of our anniversary] Joe came over to Susan's at about 12:45ish and watched Brooklyn with me haha. We took her to the park and Joe was spinning us both on the merry-go-round thing and while Brooklyn played in the sandbox he pushed me on the swings haha. And once we all 3 went down the slide together..Brooklyn in front, then me, and then Joe haha. It was quite fun actually.

We didn't stay at the park long though because it was hotter than fizzuck outside and Brooklyn was tired and she got a little sunburnt so we took her to McDonald's and got her a happy meal then took her back home and laid her down for a nap and while she napped Joseph and I played Candy Land haha. I KICKED HIS ASS..ALL 3 TIMES haha. I guess beating my 17 year old boyfriend in Candy Land just comes natural to me..

haha but yeahhh. Brooklyn woke up at around 4 so we went back outside but played on the slip and slide this time haha. Brooklyn likes to get on her belly and have Joseph or I pull her down the slide by her arms haha..so that's what we did most of the time. Joe pulled her more than I did though because the first few times I was pulling her [and walking backwards] I fell flat on my ass and bruised my tailbone haha..so Joe took over and I think she enjoyed it a lot more haha.

But ANYWAYSSSS..we played outside [mostly on the slip and slide] until Susan came home at 5:10ish..and then she took over and Joseph and I left and headed back to my house and showered and got ready and left my house by 6:50 or so. We went out to eat at Red Lobster first and the wait wasn't that long being it was a Tuesday night..so we got in, got served, sat and talked for a little bit, and then left. We were going to go see a movie afterwards at 8:30 at the AMC but there was no good movies whatsoever showing so we didn't bother paying $9 for a movie we really didn't want to see. So! We went down to the famous waterfront park and laid my Carebear blanket down that I had in the trunk of my car and laid down haha. We looked at the stars and cuddled really close together..but then this effing huge moth thing that I thought was a bat landed on Joe's leg and I got up and screamed and he was like, "what the hell?" And I pointed to the thing and he just like, flicked it off and he kinda laughed haha. So that totally ruined the moment so we were forced to end it. But!

We moved onto something better haha. We went and played in the water-shooter-upper things haha. I have no clue what they're called..but it was like, a bunch of holes in the concrete that shot water up?? Haha..they may be called springs..I have no clue..but they were fun as hell haha. We ran through them and chased each other and got soakeddd haha. But then we got to kiss in them which was fun haha..nothing sexier than a kiss when you're soaking wet. *wink wink*.

haha but yeahhh. Our night pretty much ended there because we both had to get up early in the morning..so after playing in the spring things we went back to my house [coldest ride home everrr] and went and kind of mingled around in my room. We talked for a little bit and he was like, "sorry if I disappointed you..I'm trying to save the best for our one year." haha and I like, punched him as hard as I could in the arm and was like, "Josephhh..shut-up!" and then I kissed him and told him that he could have given me a frickin' boquet of weeds and kissed me and told me happy anniversary and I would have been happy haha..but then I was like, "you better pay up for it on July 7th." and of course I was joking haha..so anyways.

That was our big 11 month anniversary..nothing special but definitely fabulousss. <3 But um, that's really all I wanted to update about. Tomorrow it's work then out with Joe..Saturday is the big JESSE MCCARTNEY concert with September..YEEHAW lmfao..and um Sundayyy..I'll update then! So au revoir!

+ OUT. OF. IT. +

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 22:44:57 GMT

Holy. Shit. Today = the most tiring day of Holly's life.

So it was my first day babysitting and I was all excited and what not..I got out of bed fairly easy..made it to Susan's by 6:50..and when I got there Brooklyn was already up and eating breakfast so I was like, mmkay I don't have to worry about breakfast. So when Susan left and Brooklyn was done eating we sat down and watched The Wiggles and Brooklyn was all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed and I was just like..drained. I have no clue why I got so tired because I wasn't when I left but then it all hit me at once and holy shitoyaaa..it hit me hard. I had to persuade Brooklyn to lay down with me and she did so I at least got to sleep until 9:30 but then she woke me up crying so yeehaw. That was the start of my day haha.

Butttttt..it didn't turn out to be that bad of a day. Brooklyn and I played outside a lot and I got in the kiddy pool with her..and we colored and played baby dolls and stuff haha..it was pretty fun. Throughout the day I woke up and got energized but like, at 4:00 I started watching the clock just waiting for Susan to get back home haha. but yeahhh. That was pretty much my first day on the job.

Tomorrow is going to be much better though..Joseph is coming with me to babysit! hahaha. It's our big eleven month anniversary and we wanted to spend time together so he's coming over around noonish to hang out with Brooklyn and me haha. I think tomorrow we're going to the park or something fun..I don't know yet but we'll make the best of it! haha so yeahhh. I'm pretty excited. Then at 5 o'clock it's quittin' time so we're going to go back to my house, changing, and then going out to dinner and a movie haha..so it's a date and I'm verrrrry excited. =]

anddddd..that's all I really have to say so..arrivederci!

+ UNEVENTFUL +

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 02:37:25 GMT

Kay so today was very uneventful. I slept until like, 12:35 and then got up and went to Kroger because I was craving their strawberry parfait haha. So I got that and a roll of cookie dough for later and left. Then I came home, swam a little, took a shower, watched part of The Incredibles and then got on the internet haha. I talked to a few people for a while then got off and watched the rest of The Incredibles. Then I ate dinner..sdklfhs which was awesomeee. haha. We cooked out because that's my favorite and my parents said they missed me all last week so they made me my favorite meal. YEEHAW. haha. Thennn..after supper Jordan came over to swim haha. I wasn't even expecting him so it was just like, Jordan's here..SURPRISE haha.

But yeah. So Rod, Meg, Jordan, and I all went out and swam. We played chicken and Jordan and I kicked some ass..SCORE haha. Then I got worn out and I'm sure Jordan was sick of having me on his shoulders so we quit and just swam around. And that was that. We swam for like, an hour or so and then went inside and Meg and I blow-dryed our hair and the guys set up the poker table..and then we played poker haha. It was pretty fun but Rod kicked all of our asses. So boo to that haha.

But yeahhh. Jordan left at like, 10, but before he left he gave me the Weezer CD to burn. SCORE. Jordan is the sex haha. but anywayssss. After he left I got on the internet and here I am now..yeehaw?

This week is going to be pretty much uneventful as well..but! I have a summer job now haha. I called Susan and talked to her and she said I could babysit Brooklyn on the days she works! So YES haha. I'll only be babysitting her on Monday-Friday of every week and every other Sunday. So it's not bad and the pay is good haha. Oh and the hours don't suck too bad either..on Mondays, Wednesdays, Thursdays, and Fridays I'm there from 7-4:30, and on Tuesdays I'm there from 8-5, and the few Sundays I work I'm only there from 8-2 so I'm pretty excited about it. I love babies..especially Brooklyn..and we're going to have so much fun! haha. This is the first summer I've ever had a job..besides last summer when I had the Build-A-Bear job for like, 2 weeks? Haha..I don't know..but yeah!

Well..I guess that's my update haha. So um..until next time..au revoir!

+ DESTiN +

Sat, 04 Jun 2005 22:07:44 GMT

Kay so the first vacay with the beau and his fam was successful. YEEHAW. haha. It was sososo fun..haha. I freakin' love the beach, seriously. When I graduate I'm moving my ass down to Florida. Preferably Destin or St.Augustine, whatever floats my boat at the time haha. But anywayssss!

I LOVED THE LITTLE GET AWAY. The beaches were fabulousss..but the funnest part to me was the carride down there haha. Joe and I sat in the very back seat of the Durango and we were all snuggled up under blankets and stuff haha. But no matter how hard we tried we couldn't go to sleep so we whispered back and forth and got into tickle fights and stuff haha. But when daylight hit for some reason we got wayyy tired..so we slept during that time. lmfao..it was weird haha.

So anywaysss..here's a detailed account of what went down on my week at Destin haha.

We left at 1 in the morning on Saturday and got to Destin at around 2:30 in the afternoon..and then we loaded all of our crap into the beach house..and then crashed haha. Joe and I slept in his room at the beach house and we slept until the next morning haha..seriously. We woke up wayyyy hungry so we ate breakfast at the house and then met up with his fam at the beach. We didn't really do anything at the beach though..Joe, Brett, and their Dad all threw a football around and I laid out with his mom for most of the time. Then later Joe pulled me out into the water and we kind of swam around..and then we got out and made a sand castle that wouldn't hold up so we kicked it down haha..then we went and played beach volleyball with a bunch of mexicans that were hitting on me. So that was Monday.

Tuesday was a little bit funner on the beach. Joe, Brett, and I all rented jet skiis and stayed on them all day haha. It was expensive and not a very good day to do it though haha. It rained Monday night so the water was choppy Tuesday and it was overcast and just blahhh haha. But it was fun anyways haha. We met up with a couple of people our age and raced them haha..that was entertaining. But it sucked for me because I flipped my jet skii and I literally thought I was going to die lmfao. Buttt! Joe saved me and the jet skii and all was good haha. anywaysss. After the beach, we all went back to the house and showered and got all dressed up and went out to eat at a place called Dirty Dick's Crab Shack..lmfao. It's kinda like Joe's Crab Shack but different..if that makes any sense haha. anywho. I bought a freakin' awesome shirt from there..it's pink and it says "I GOT MY CRABS FROM DIRTY DICK'S" on the back haha..it's great. but yeahhh. After we ate we went and saw The Longest Yard at this huge ass theater..then we went back home and slept. And that concludes my Tuesday.

Wednesday, to me, was the funnest day. We went snorkling and swam with the dolphins haha. It was sdfhsklh mad fun haha. I have a lot of pictures from it but they have yet to be developed so yeehaw haha. but anyways. We did that pretty early in the day and for the rest of the day we went sight seeing pretty much. It was all new to me because that was the first time I had ever been to Destin..but Joe had seen everything already because they go down there 2 or 3 times every summer. so yeahhhh. That was pretty much my Wednesday.

Thursday was pretty fun too. We went back to the beach again but! Joseph and I went parasailing haha. It was the first time either of us had done it and I was pretty scared but more excited haaa. It turned out to be effing funnnn and after it was over I wanted to do it again haha. The people said they would let us go again for half the price but we decided even going for half the price was too expensive haha..so that was that. but yeah. For the rest of the day we laid around on the beach and later went out to eat and rented some movies and took them back to the house and had a little party amongst ourselves haha. So that was Thursday.

sdkhalk Friday..ohhh Friday. It was FABULOUS. I know I said Wednesday was the funnest but Friday was by far the most romantic. For the first time since we'd been there, Joe && I went out on our own and shopped around and bought souvenirs for people..then we walked around the beach for a couple of hours..and ahh. I just loved it. It felt like a scene off of a movie..a little teenage couple holding hands walking on the beach haha. We walked really far to where no one was at and we laid on the sand and kissed and stuff haha..I freakin' loved it. Then Joseph got this huge ass stick..pretty much a limb from some tree..and put a big heart in the sand and put H+J in the middle of it. skdlhklah rawrrr. I loved it..so I took a picture of it haha. When I get my camera back I'm scanning that fucker and it's going to be my background. YEEHAW. haha..but anyways. We walked back to the house and his mom had this huge ass supper for everyone since it was our last night there..but Joe said he wanted to take me out so we didn't eat at the house. Instead we went to this little restaurant a couple of miles down the road and ate haha. It was pretty cute..we got a booth and shared a meal together..it was pretty fun haha. Then we went back to the house and watched movies and cuddled some more haha..and I almost fell asleep but he kept waking me back up telling me that I couldn't fall asleep haha. I was really confused but! it all came together later haha. At like, 11:00, he told me he wanted to take me somewhere..so I got up and we left..and he walked me over to the beach and was like, "I'll race you!" haha..I laughed at first then realized he was serious..so we raced. And the little whore was ahead of me the whole time..and so I stopped to catch my breath and laugh some more haha..and then I saw him run right into the water in his effing clothes haha. I was like, cracking up and yelling for him to come on and he was like, "get in!" and I was hesitant but I did haha. I swam right out to him and he grabbed me and we kissed for a realllllly long time and then we swam around haha..and then I told him I had never laid under the Florida stars with a guy before..so I drug him out and we laid on the beach and calmed down and looked at the stars..dfhkl it was amazinggg! I just felt so relaxed out there and ahhh..it was breath-taking. But our moment got ruined because it was already 12:30 and we had to leave at 1..so we kissed and walked hand in hand back to the house and his parents just looked at us like we were retarded..then told us to pack everything that we hadn't packed yet..and so we did and we left at around 1 again.

The carride back this time was even more fun because we were just so caught up in each other haha. We cuddled even closer this time and whispered even softer and kissed a little more passionate and ahhh..it was just amazing. We fell asleep easier this time..and when I woke up at around noon my head was in his lap haha..so yeah. It was kind of awkward for everyone in the car haha.

BUT ANYWAYSSS. We got back to good 'ole Louisville at about 2..and they dropped me off and Joe helped me get all my shit upstairs and then he kissed me goodbye..and when they left I slept for about an hour and a half, got up, showered, watched some TV, then got on the internet. I messed around on the internet for a while and then decided I needed to update so here I am now.

and WOW. That was a long ass journal entry..haha..so I better wrap it up quick. If you read all that comment so I can tell you how much I love you later haha. but I guess I better go now so..TE AMO.<3

+ WELLLL +

Fri, 27 May 2005 02:35:53 GMT

I'm all packed for Destin.

YEEHAW.

+ BOO +

Tue, 24 May 2005 00:26:23 GMT

CHEERS TO A GOOD YESTERDAY. Ahh it was so fun! I don't know what made it so fun because Joe and I didn't do anything..but all I could do was hang all over him and hug him the whole day. We had most of the day to ourselves and we swam a little bit and we made grilled cheese sandwiches together and watched The Sandlot..and we studied for a few exams because that's what cool people do..and we made cookies and ahh..yay! It was just greatttt! And at night we watched Extreme Makeover Home Edition and Desperate Housewives! Even though Desperate Housewives was pretty good, I was way disappointed because it didn't end with a bang. They made it sound so big but the cliffhanger wasn't that big at all and the person that died I had expected to anyway. So boo to that.

I'm also disappointed because I started packing for Destin today and I can't find the bottoms to one of my bikinis. It's not like I don't have 230740297 more but I really like this bikini and for some very odd reason I think I might have left it in Miami over Spring Break. I'm not sure though so I'll keep looking.

But anywaysss..another disappointment for me was that The Killers concert for tomorrow at The Palace got postponed to July 20th darnitttt. I was really looking forward to that and now I have to wait. But oh well I guess..as long as the show didn't get cancelled all together.

Anywho. 2 MORE DAYS LEFT OF SCHOOL BABY. I'm taking my US History, Physics, and English exams which I guess won't be all that hard except for Physics. US History is all vocab and English is just 3 essays and some multiple choice about the book we had to read in January..which I forgot the name of but oh well. flksdlh but physics rawrrrr. It's going to be hard damnit haha. But I've been studying for the past week and Joe actually helped me out a lot on it yesterday so hopefully I'll do pretty good.

But after exams it's all done and over with and I'll be a senior baby..YEEHAW. After I get past these 2 days it's nothing but sun, parties, shopping, vacations and sleeping..HELL TO THE YEAH. I won't update for a while because tomorrow I'm going to Joe's baseball game then going to his house [I only get to go because we told his mom we were going to study for exams together], Wednesday is the last day of school and Joe and I are partying hardy that night, Thursday is just like..a day to relax I guess so I might update, and then Friday Joe and I are doing last minute shopping for Destin and then the Kenny Chesney concert is at 7:30 and afterwards Joe and I are going back to his house and leaving for Destin at 1 in the effing morning..so we'll probably get to Destin at 2 or 3 in the afternoon so YEEHAW. We're leaving at 1 in the morning on the 4th so if I'm not too tired I shall update when I come back and tell you alllllll about it. So until next time..au revoir!

+ BRiDGEY +

Sun, 22 May 2005 03:05:42 GMT

Well tonight was fun! I just got back from Bridgette's party not too long ago and it was a blastttt haha. I felt like I was in 5th grade all over again haha. It was an all girl party and there were only about 7 or 8 of us..and we cooked out and jumped on the trampoline and showed off all of our gymnastics skills like we did when we were 13 && tumbling was the life of the party, and we all put on face masks and stuff haha..it was great! Then at like, 7 we watched Team America and it was officially the dumbest movie ever..but yet I laughed so hard I almost peed. I want to go buy it now and make Joseph watch it because I know he will love it haha. But yeahhhh haha. The movie was over at like, 9:30 so Bridgey opened presents and we ate cake and went outside and played flashlight tag haha..it was quite fun. But I had to be home by 11 because I stayed out way late last night without telling my parents where I was so I was kind of in trouble..but yeahhh. I left at like, 10:30 and got home at around 10:50 and here I am now. YEEHAW.

I absolutely cannot wait for tomorrow. Joe and I haven't been together in a while and ahh I'm just so excited! And looking forward to next week..Tuesday is The Killers concert, Wednesday is the last day of school, Friday is the Kenny Chesney concert, and Saturday I'm leaving with Joe&his fam to Destin. CHEERS. Joe gets out on the same day as me so we're partying hardy that night haha. And Friday we're going to the Kenny concert together and then going back to his house and leaving for Destin at 1 in the morning Saturday and I'm so excited! Buttttt..I'm more excited because tomorrow is the finale of Desperate Housewives..ooh la la. I'm peed off because it's going to be a cliffhanger but other than that I couldn't be more excited! I can't wait to curl up in bed with Joe and watch it..yay!

+ YEEHAW +

Thu, 19 May 2005 23:56:10 GMT

So this weekend is going to be uber fun. Tomorrow after school a few people are coming over to swim and stuff..and Saturday I'm going to Bridgette's party which I'm excited about..and Sunday Joe and I have the whole day together.

YEEHAW.

+ WEiRD +

Sun, 15 May 2005 02:47:40 GMT

Well this weekend has been interesting to say the least..it was the best && worst weekend of my life..weird huh? Yeah I knowww..skdlsklh. I wish I could talk all about it but I have to leave some stuff out because people talk and it's never good..so here goes nothing.

Friday night Joe told me he was going out with a bunch of his guy friends to get together and play cards..so I was like, alright Jordan and I are going to stay at my house and study for our Physics exams..and everything was cool. Kay..so Friday night Jordan came over but instead of studying we went to the drive-in that's about an hour away from here near Joe's old school..and on the way down there it got to where there were hardly any houses it was just fields of grass and stuff. It was so pretty and I loved it but! one of the houses that was in the middle of no where had really loud music playing and there was smoke rolling up from either a bon fire or cook-out and there were 405734907 cars parked in their yard..and Joe's truck was one of them.

At first I didn't think anything of it because he told me he was at Derek's house and he wouldn't be 50 minutes out of the way..but just to make sure I called him and it went straight to voice mail so I just hung up. Well later on I got a drunk phone call from him and he was being loud and obnoxious and he kept telling me to come over..and I asked him where he was at and he said Charissa's place. Kay so I had never even heard of Charissa and so I was kind of scared and I didn't say anything for a while..then he was like, "don't worry she's just an old friend of mine." And he said it like, 3 times and I finally got so upset that I just hung up the phone.

When I hung up Jordan asked me if everything was alright and I told him the story and when I was telling it to him it hit me..Charissa was an "old friend" of Joe's which meant she probably went to his old school which is close to where we were at and we had passed it on the way to the drive-in and the house we passed with all the cars in front of it was about 10 minutes from the school and was probably Charissa's house..so I got all peed off but Jordan calmed me down and we finished watching the movie and I didn't think about it. The only thing I was worried about was how Joe was going to get home but I figured he has been drunk many a time and made it home safely every time so I wasn't going to fret and ruin my time out with my "old friend."

So besides all that, Jordan and I had a fabulous time. We laid in his truck bed with sleeping bags and tons of pillows and blankets and watched all 3 movies. We saw Kicking&Screaming, Ammityville Horror, and House of Wax. They played Kicking&Screaming first which gave us good laughs for the night..and then they played the scary movies and I clung to Jordan the whole time haha..it was so much effing fun! I ate so much last night though..wow haha. I go to that drive-in only once every summer though because it's so far out but Jordan actually made it worth going an hour out just to see a few movies. He himself was the highlight of my night. =]

But anyways. The movies didn't get over until about 3 in the morning..so we didn't get back to my house until about 4:15 or so. We were both way tired so he just crashed at my house which was cool. We didn't wake up until like, 12:20 this afternoon though haha. When we woke up we ate lunch and watched The Sandlot haha..it was great..but we kept getting distracted by things. Like how it was 75 degrees out and the perfect rain..there was no thunder or lightning or wind..so we went outside and played in it..yeehaw. We jumped on the trampoline and slid all over the place..and then we got in my pool with our clothes on haha..and later he threw me in a mud pit but I grabbed him and took him down with me and so we played in the mud for a while haha. It was great fun..but then the rain stopped and the sun popped out so we hosed ourselves down and went back inside and got in the jacuzzi to warm up a bit. We stayed in the jacuzzi for a while and got out and took a nap..then woke up hungry so we went and got ice cream at Zesto's. =] We sat outside and shared a banana split haha..it was so good. I tied the cherry stem with my tongue and I was trying to teach him but he just couldn't do it haha..but it was so funny watching him try..haha definitely the highlight of my day. anyways. We stayed at Zesto's until it was dark out then I had to take him back home..so I did that and came back here and got on the internet and here I am.

I haven't talked to Joe all day..and I have no clue where he's at and he doesn't know where I'm at..and right now I have no motive to call and talk to him whatsoever. I guess he'll call if he wants to talk to me..and if he doesn't call..oh well..he can stay a stubborn asshole.

erwekh kay so I'm going to get myself all worked up if I talk about him too much so I'm just going to drop it now and go watch Aladdin. c-yaaa.

+ SCHEDULES +

Thu, 12 May 2005 01:13:48 GMT

Well today we got our tentative schedules for next year..and mine's actually pretty good. Here it is homie:

Excel English - Pearson
Spanish II - Bailey
AP Calculous - Lincoln
Psychology/Sociology - Reed
Government - Oppal
Mass Media - Creceilus
Adv. 2D - Bortka

..and I have A lunch..YEEHAW. I have a lot of classes with a bunch of my friends which is exciting. The most classes I have with one person is 4 and I have them with Jordan. We have english, spanish, gov't, and adv. 2D together haha..and I have 3 with every girl of the Sexy Six..YAY! Senior year is going to kick ass. I can already tell haha.

But anyways! I can't wait until this weekend! Joe is hanging out with his friends Friday night so I'm going to go out with mine..YEEHAW. Saturday I think I'm going to go shopping or some shit..it's supposed to be rainy&stuff which isn't very exciting so shopping sounds good. =] Then Sunday I'm probably doing nothing hahah..so score for being an at-home loser. =]

+ LONG ENTRY +

Sun, 08 May 2005 23:04:23 GMT

Kay so this weekend was fabbbb..woohoo. Yesterday was my big Derby party and it was mightyyyy fun. <33 All 6 couples I invited showed up [Andie&Ian, Jordan&Stacy, September&Travis, Ashley&Scott, Keo&Chris, and Andrea&Andrew] at like, 2ish and the guys grilled out and the girls stayed in and sat everything up haha. We ate our huge dinner at like, 4ish and finished right before the race which was perfect timing..but the best f`ing part was my horse won. YEEHAW. I picked the horse with the cutest name even though his odds were 50:1 haha. I put $5 big ones on him so everyone gave me $5 at the end and now I'm rich with my big $65..rahrah. GO JOCK-A-WHO! haaa.

But yeahhh..after the race there really wasn't anything to do so we all went swimming..it was so f`ing fun though. Me, Andrea, September & Ashley were building Stacy & Keo and then they built me up but when I went up my bikini bottoms fell down and I screamed and jumped back but when I landed in the water my mouth was wide open so I about drowned and ahhh..it was horrible. It felt like a scene off a movie haha..dkfhklsh rawr it sucked..but it was funny afterwards haha. Everyone was laughing at me & I was getting peed off because I was choking and caughing and my eyes were watery and I couldn't breathe..then they tried to cheer me up by building the guys..lmfao. That was the funniest f'ing part right there..ahaha. They built Jordan up and so I went up behind him and pulled his trunks down and he yelled "FUCK" really loud and fell..ahaha. It was great..I laughed a lot haha. but yeahhh. We swam until 9:00 then we got worn out so we got in the jacuzzi and had even more fun. All the girls switched guys so I got to sit on Jordan's lap and Stacy sat on Joe's lap haha..it was great. We didn't stay in the jacuzzi as long as we did in the pool though..we only stayed in for about an hour then decided we wanted to play a game..so we played Jenga Truth or Dare..ahh that game is so sexual. I won't say everything that happened though because I don't want rumors going around about anything so I'll keep it to myself haha..it was damn fun though. =]

dfdklsh anyways. Nothing really happened after we played Jenga & people started leaving at around 11:30. Joe & I were up until 1 cleaning everything up..and afterwards we took a shower and then got into bed. We had to get up dick early this morning to go to church though which sucked..but we got over it. After church we took our mommies out for lunch at Rocky's then went shopping at The Summit and got them presents haha..I even got myself a present haha..go smoothie makers. I've already made one today and it was beautiful..haha rahh.

But anywaysss..Joe went home with his moomy afterwards because he had a lot of homework to do..so I went back to my house and laid out and swam. I fell asleep while I was laying out and I woke up and I have horrible sunglasses lines..dkflhsklh. It sucksss..my sunglasses are huge so rahhh..it bites. But hopefully it'll fade out and not be so noticable haha..but yeahh. We grilled out again today and I just ate supper a while ago at like, 6:00 or so..then I did my homework and now I'm on here. I'm so bored..dhklh rawr. Joseph normally comes over on Sunday nights but he can't tonight because he got a smoke-up in Alg.II and he's like, sorta grounded? He can only go out once on weekends and he just barely got to spend the night at my house last night so yeahhh..it sucks but he's only grounded for 2 weeks which is good..but if he doesn't bring his D up he is grounded for 3 weeks and it's over the summer..so boo..he better bring it up haha. But yeahhh..skldhlakh that's pretty much my weekend. I don't have much else to say but..new Desperate Housewives tonight..YEEFUCKINHAW. =] can't waitttt! I also can't wait until May 24th which is when I see The Killers at the Palace and May 27th which is when I see Kenny Chesney at Schottenstein Center in Columbus and June 11th when I see Jesse McCartney at King's Island [lmfao..make fun of me and see what happens]..so yeah. Lots to look forward to! skaklh but um..I'm done for now. Arrivederci!

+ RANDOM UPDATE +

Wed, 04 May 2005 00:41:50 GMT

Kayyy so I just felt like updating randomly about pointless things. Like how I was on the news last night & didn't know about it until first period this morning? Yeahhh..that was nice. And it's not even like it was a good thing..they caught me gagging because of the bloody pictures the speaker was showing us. dhlksh RAWR. Eckart told me it shows the camera going over the whole audience and then they zoom in on me individually gagging and they cut off right before I puke. Wellll..for one that's not even funny. Yesterday was f'ing embarassing enough puking in front of the entire school & almost passing out and then it was on the news? Okayy way to make Holler's day. But yeah..someone video taped it because we made the top news story and they're bringing it in & Eckart is giving them extra credit for it and all of the classes get to watch it. YEEHAW.

Anywaysss..besides that, school has been going pretty good. At Joe's school he is running for senior class president against who he calls the "mother" of the school..who has been the student council president since like, 6th grade haha..and now everyone is going for Joseph and it made her cry. Poor thing? Haha..he said it was because of what the signs he made said..and I was like, "what was that?" And he told me there's one that says, "Garner is cooler than Schuler" and "Vote Joe: someone who can tackle the problems" and some other stuff that I don't remember. And then he told me that her friends made one that said, "SCORE WITH THERESA, DON'T STRIKE OUT WITH JOE" and even though it was her friends it upset her because it made her like skanky haha. And on one of her signs someone marked all over it and put "FATTY" & she thinks Joe was in on it so she's all peed off at him haha. But yeah. He said once the campainging thing is over he'll take them down and bring them to me so I can see them haha..wow.

Anddd at my school I too am running for senior class president. YEEHAW. I'm running against the guy who will probably be valedictorian of the class of 2006..but um..not such a huge threat to me? All it comes down to is a popularity contest & even though I'm hated by some, I'd say I'll probably get more votes than him. Call me conceited but I have faith haha. But likeee..my picture is plastered all over the school & a lot of people are taking them down or writing SLUT on them so that's not good..but oh welllll.

Well hm. I guess that's it? Well no it's notttt. Mine & Joe's 10 month anniversary is Saturday which is also Derby! Woo-hoo! He has a baseball game at 8 in the f'ing morning and I'm going to that then we're coming back to my house to get ready for the big party..YEEHAW. For the first time in my entire life I'm throwing a Derby party! Haha..it's like, going to be really elegant&stuff haha. It's a black and white affair [Joseph and I decided haha] and we're only having like, 12 people tops over & we're going to have a nice dinner party and stuff haha. Since we don't have school again Friday, September&I are going to go dress shopping for the party haha. My parents are going to be at some other Derby party gambling away [my dad put $500 f'ing dollars on a horse..dslkh what the helllll] so Joseph & I are throwing this. My parents know about it though and guarantee they'll lock the liquor cabinent & hide the key but! hopefully I can get a bottle of bubbly bubbly for the event haha. Drinking in moderation though since it's supposed to be elegant and we don't need wasted people crawling all over the house haha..but yeah!

I'm doneeeee.

+ JOE`S PROM +

Mon, 02 May 2005 00:40:53 GMT

kldghfklsdh last night was f`cking beautifullllllll..it was just ahhh..dfslk SUPER haha. It beat my prom by a long run to say the least haha..and guess what whoresss? You`re going to hear all about it..YEEHAW.

Kayyy so I woke up dick early yesterday morning..like at 8:30 or 9 and went and got my hair done at 10. This time I wore it up and it was in twists all in the front and up the back and on the sides then it was pulled up in the back and curled..it looked really good but I`m still like, so self-conscious about wearing my hair up since I never do haha..but yeah. It turned out looking pretty good..and if you don`t believe me I`m putting a picture of me that Joe`s mom took yesterday at the bottom of this entry so rahhh.

Haha anyways! It took her around 2 hours to do my hair..and then she redid my nails and toenails and makeup which took all of an hour and a half..and then I was done! I didn`t leave the salon until like, 2 and by then it was time to go to Scott`s house to get pictures taken so I had to go from the salon to Joe`s house and then Joe`s parents drove us over to Scott`s where an f`ing assload of people were haha. It was madnesssss..whew. There were over 15 couples there plus parents so yeahhhh..it made me nervous haha. Especially being around so many people I didn`t know on a first name basis haha. But everyone was really nice to me since I`m "Boogsy`s girlfriend" haha..so yeah. It 'twas fun.

We got done taking pictures at around 5:00 so we went ahead and got on the big stretch Escalade. Holy shitoyaaa..that bitch was a monster haha. There were 2 of them with 14 people in each and wow..it was just big haha..dfkhgflh but so much fun. Joe`s friends are even bigger retards than my friends haha..they`re so f`ing hilarious. They all brought spiked Gatorade and one person even brought 3 trial size shampoo bottles full of Vodka haha..it was crazzzzay. Joe drank a little but I didn`t drink anything because like, 20 some odd people didn`t pass the breathalyzer test at my prom and they weren`t allowed in and I wasn`t for sure if they were going to have breathalyzers at Joe`s prom SO I decided to play it safe haha. Everyone was like, "c`mon Holly..we all saw you wasted at Scott`s a few weekends ago..nothing to be ashamed of." Haha but despite the peer pressure, I STAYED STRONG. Woo-hoo! haha..

saklh anywhooo. We ate at Buckhead`s and got to sit out on the deck by the river and everything haha. We all took the whole deck up haha..it was quite funny. But it sucked because we had to wait for our food for so long..and I was starvinggg since I hadn`t eaten anything all day haha. All I ended up getting was a chicken salad but it was a hugeee mofo so it filled me up haha. But yeahh! We were done eating by 7:15 or so & Joe`s prom started at 7:30 so we were crunched for time and all freaking out so that wasn`t good..but we ended up making it there by 7:45 [traffic was a bitch] and all was good.

So yayyy..here come the good parts! The dancing was fabbb! Joe & I danced to the first slow song & the last one together and every other time we were dancing with someone else haha. I can`t count how many people I danced with..wow. Everyone was dancing with everyone and it was just so fun! It was so funny seeing guys coming up to Joe asking if they could dance with me and then having girls come up to me to see if they could dance with Joe haha. As long as their name wasn`t Kim I could have given 2 shitoyas less..haha. dshlkhs but yeah! It was just awesomeee! There were a group of senior girls that had short polka dotted dresses on and they didn`t have their hair fixed or anything and they wore Chuck Taylors and wow..they just looked like they were having so much fun. They requested "Devil Went Down to Georgia" and sang every word to it..and lead the electric side..and sang at the top of their lungs to "Cotton Eyed Joe" and yeahhh..I hope on my senior prom I have that much fun! Haha..anywhoooo.

GUESS WHO GOT PROM PRINCE? MR.JOSEPHHH! Ahh I was so f`ing proud of him! When they announced his name I started jumping up and down and clapping and I gave him a huge hug and kiss haha..I made sure to draw attention to him haha. One of his good girl friends made princess so that was exciting..they danced to the same song that I danced to the homecoming prince with in October so that was ironic haha..but yeahhh. It was fun.

So his prom was fun..but the after party was just spectacularrrr. We decided this time to go out & party instead of going to his school`s after-prom which I think was a really good decision haha. All the 28 people that were in the Escalades + 50 more all went to Scott`s house and partied it up. We all got crunk and buck wild haha..it was sooo fun. Scott`s pool is already open & despite how cold it was we all went swimming haha. The sucky part was I totally ruined my hair so going to Prom Sunday at Joe`s church was completely out of the question haha..but it was worth it.

We stayed at Scott`s until the wee hours of the morning..and then a designated driver took us back to Joe`s house where we crashed and didn`t wake up until noon today. Neither of us had hangovers which was a plus but we both had a shiot load of homework so I had to leave..but now I`m procrastinating so YEEHAW. I had to update..flkhk it was too fun of a night not to. SO YEAH. I hope you enjoyed reading because I know I enjoyed writing it..lmfao. Whateverrrr..but I think I`m going to go nowwww..napping or eating sounds really good right now haha. So until my next update..au revoir!

PS] here`s the picture of my dress & hair..it`s kind of dark and I blurred my face out because my facial expression totally throws off the whole dress & hair..and the date is wrong on her digital camera because we haven`t a clue on how to fix it..so this picture is pretty f`cked up & dark haha..but here it is anyway.

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+ RACHEY +

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 22:58:44 GMT

Kay so this weekend was pretty fun with the exception of a few things! Friday there was a touch-down tornado [it was a big F0 lmfao..I didn't even think they made those?] while Rachey and I were at Joe's baseball game! dklshklh it was effing scarrrry! The game got called off early because the umpire saw lightning and all the guys were peed off because it was like, blue skies with big white clouds above us but further south it was like, dark and they wanted to play as long as they could..so they got off the field and came out and waited around to see if there was going to be any more lightning. Well about 5 minutes later, we saw some so the game officially got called off. Kay so Joe, Rachel, and I stand around and talk for a while then the wind picked up so we decided to head on home. Soo we all go to Joe's truck and Rachel sat in the middle and when I was getting in it was still blue skies above us then I hit my head on Joe's truck door and when I sat down from hitting my head, it was dark gray above us..so the clouds rolled in like that. dlshklkh so Rachel and I started freaking out but Joe told us to calm down..and we couldn't so he turned the music up and told us not to look behind us & stuff..so we tried not to and we were singing really loud to the music and then we heard tornado sirens. Rachel & I both started screaming and crying because we were twenty minutes away from my house and the wind was blowing Joe's truck around and Joe didn't know what to do [he said it's best if you can try to outrun it then try instead of stopping somewhere] and then hail started to come down..and the winds really picked up and a downed power line fell out in front of us and we ran over it so I had to call 911 and tell them about it..dsfhlkh and ahhh it was just bad. Joe took us to his aunt's house instead of trying to go all the way back home so we were there for a good 2 hours..which sucked because it was so boring but it was safer than being on the road so yeah. That was Friday's big adventure.

Then Saturday was even worse..Thunder was f`ing miserableeeee! We got there at 8 in the morning and popped a tent right along the river and we just sat in it the whole morning freezing our asses off. Rachel & I took a nap but not for very long so when we woke up we looked at magazines and just talked to Joe & waited for everyone else to come. Welllll..the couples didn't start showing up until 1:00 so we had a lot of time to ourselves but when they came it was awesome. 22 people ended up hanging around us and there was a total of 4 tents haha. We all walked around and froze most of the time but we stopped and got stuff to eat and Rachel and I got to be on the radio haha..it was great. Then we watched the air show but that got boring so the guys threw a football around and all the girls stayed in the tents and talked haha. We had to keep ourselves occupied for 9 f`ing hours until the fireworks started which sucked but the time went sorta fast. We got rained on for about 15 minutes and all the girls [including myself, I admit] were complaining but the guys didn't care because they were all tackling each other in the mud haha. So at least they were having fun. And I started to have fun when the fireworks shot off because it was ever so romantical haha. Joe & I went and stood right along the river and held onto each other and hugged and kissed when the first fireworks went off and I snuggled really close to him the whole time haha. For once the entire day I actually felt warm..despite of how wet & cold he was haha. So that just made my entire night.

Kay so I won't even get into the fact that we were in traffic for 2 hours coming back and didn't make it home until 1 haha. I'll just go on with the weekend.

Haha..anywaysss. Sunday was mine & Rachel's day of slumber. We slept until 1:30 and got up and ate and watched Meet the Fockers then slept some more haha. She left at like, 5, so when she left I took a shower & went to Joe's. We hadn't spent much one on one time with each other all weekend so it was nice. His mom made a huge dinner which was amazing and I ate like, 6 plates of food haha. But then Joe & I went and worked out in his weight room and I didn't feel like such a lard any more haha. dkfhklh anywho. We watched Extreme Makeover Home Edition and Desperate Housewives and then I had to go home. Sad freakin' day haha..but yeahhh. As soon as I got home I crashed..for some very odd reason I was way tired haha..and it sucked getting out of bed this morning haha. So yeahhhh.

Then today wasn't bad. I was the only girl in the high school wearing shorts because it was only like, 40º this morning but it didn't phase me. After school I had tennis practice and it was warm and sunny and my face even got a little bit red haha..so yeehaw. Then I came home after practice and got in the tanning bed so I've gotten just as much heat today as I've had coldness haha..yay? But yeahhh! dslkkslh I can't WAIT until this weekend..oh mannn. Friday was a built-in snow day and for the first time in like, 6 years we didn't have the first snow day this year so we get it off! SCORE. Joe doesn't and we both decided we're not going to risk sneaking him around any more haha..so I think the ladies and I are going to hang out haha. sfkhskl and then Saturday is Joe's prom! dkslkh ahh YES. I'm so excited! I know most of the people from his school so it's going to be quite fun! CAN'T WAIT!

dlskhlkh ahh so yeah! This journal entry is mad long but it took me no time at all to write haha. Weird..but yeah! I think I'm going to go now! Love you!

+ HALF DAY +

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 22:59:05 GMT

Ahh today was so much fun! We got out at like, 12:50 so Brooke, Brandi, Lee, Brendan, Jordan, and I all went out to eat at Hooter's after school lmao. It wasn't that bad actually..the food was good and well..let's just not comment on the girls? haha. Thank God the guys are used to big boobs and weren't all like, gawking over them haha..yay for self-control!

Lmao..anywayssss. After we ate, Jordan dropped me back off at the school because we had cheer try-outs at 3:30 and GUESS WHATTTTTT? I made it! Ahaha..YAY! Andddd I'm varsity captain! Woo-hoo! But like, I'm majorly depressed because it's my last year cheering for high school! Rawrrr. =[ But besides getting captain the thing that totally made my day was..

MY NEW CAR. <33 My daddy picked me up from cheer try-outs at 5:30 and we went to the dealer and she was waiting for me! Haha..we were there for like, half an hour signing papers and what not and I got to drive her home! Ahhh I frickin love ittttt..I can't wait until everybody at school sees it! It's black & beautiful and NEW. WOO-HOO! haha.

dklsflskh ahhh I can't wait until this weekend! Rachey is spending the whole weekend with me and Thunder is Saturday! dsklhslkh YAY! I won't update until Sunday after Rachey leaves so I guess this is it for the weekend! Love you!